Post by StellarSarahh on Apr 24, 2013 22:30:28 GMT -6
I'm really going to take advantage of this Life and Rants section. If you don't care, that's fine by me.
Just this past Thursday, the 18th. I lost a very dear friend of mine. Ever since then I've felt like a HUGE chunk of me has been missing. Of course, it hasn't been impossible for me to become happy within that time. But when I am, I feel bad for smiling. Like, somehow my friend would be really upset if he knew I was having a good time. But, of course he wouldn't be upset or anything. He was such a great person. He was nice to everyone and he always had a smile on his face. No wonder he won Homecoming King last year. Since my freshman year, I've called him Daddy Gunn. He really took me under his wing and made me feel worthy. He was one of my first real friends in high school. For Soctavia, well he has heard this a million times. And I'm sorry about that! But I've been thinking a lot since last night. One of my very good friends, Shelby, came up to me last night and told me he would be very proud of me. Although that was very flattering. I couldn't help but think that maybe he wouldn't be. I really haven't done anything spectacular in my life. The only thing that I can even kind of connect to would be when I won Homecoming Queen this year and he called me, freaking out. Telling me how proud he was to call me his "daughter" and that he couldn't think of anyone that deserved it more. I hope I can always be the person he was so proud of. I'm really going to miss and it's going to be very hard knowing I'm never going to see him again. He was a HUGE part of my life. I love him a whole bunch!
I really just wanted to share that with you guys. Thank you for reading this.
If anyone else has experienced anything remotely related to this, feel free to share. And if you have anything to share about what you did to help you cope with it, that'd be great. I'd really appreciate it. Again, thank you!
Just this past Thursday, the 18th. I lost a very dear friend of mine. Ever since then I've felt like a HUGE chunk of me has been missing. Of course, it hasn't been impossible for me to become happy within that time. But when I am, I feel bad for smiling. Like, somehow my friend would be really upset if he knew I was having a good time. But, of course he wouldn't be upset or anything. He was such a great person. He was nice to everyone and he always had a smile on his face. No wonder he won Homecoming King last year. Since my freshman year, I've called him Daddy Gunn. He really took me under his wing and made me feel worthy. He was one of my first real friends in high school. For Soctavia, well he has heard this a million times. And I'm sorry about that! But I've been thinking a lot since last night. One of my very good friends, Shelby, came up to me last night and told me he would be very proud of me. Although that was very flattering. I couldn't help but think that maybe he wouldn't be. I really haven't done anything spectacular in my life. The only thing that I can even kind of connect to would be when I won Homecoming Queen this year and he called me, freaking out. Telling me how proud he was to call me his "daughter" and that he couldn't think of anyone that deserved it more. I hope I can always be the person he was so proud of. I'm really going to miss and it's going to be very hard knowing I'm never going to see him again. He was a HUGE part of my life. I love him a whole bunch!
I really just wanted to share that with you guys. Thank you for reading this.
If anyone else has experienced anything remotely related to this, feel free to share. And if you have anything to share about what you did to help you cope with it, that'd be great. I'd really appreciate it. Again, thank you!